Advice

There is one person I can sort of talk to about stuff and I got this message from them today...

stop sitting around feeling sorry for yourself because it achieves absolutely nothing. i appreciate that there are factors in your life that you can't change (like having depression or whatever) and they an be really hard to get over but there are also other factors you CAN change and to sit there as if your'e a passive victim to life is completely disingenuous and obviously not true. if you don't like your body do something about it, if you don't like your job do something about it, if you want to be a teacher go and fucking do it. don't act like you're pathetic and worthless because you're absolutely not 

which I suppose is sort of true. Although the last bit about not actually being pathetic and worthless I'd disagree with based on how I'm feeling today.

Anyway, they then came back with this

tomorrow

or now

NOW

make alist

of everything in your life you want to change

get the elements that are within your control to change

and make smaller lists

with smaller goals

that you can work towards

and itll make you feel better

and you can do something productive

 

Which sounds a decent idea I think. If I can be bothered to do it or not though is something totally different. Hope is long gone really of anything ever changing at the moment.

If I do make a list I'll put it up here tomorrow, and although it's not as if anyone else will see it, by having it out there online hopefully will encourage me to actually work on it...