One thing I need to stop doing is getting take away food. I don't know why I do it other than out of habit. If I have a shit day I'll think "hey, I'll get a take away to cheer myself up", and if I have a good day I'll think "hey, I'll reward myself with a take away". Or even, "hey, it's Saturday. Let's get a take away".
And then when I get it I wouldn't really say I enjoy it as such, and then afterwards I'm struck with such feelings of guilt and self loathing because financially I shouldn't really be spending nearly £20 at domino's or where ever for one meal when I can spend £20 and feed myself for a whole week. And then of course there's the fact that the food itself is so unhealthy, and considering such a large part of my self disgust is reserved for my physical appearance I'm not exactly doing myself any favours by scoffing a large pizza and bottle of coke.
I really need to improve my will power and discipline. Hopefully keeping track of things on this blog in the coming year will help that.
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